Thursday, April 22, 2010 Y Thursday, April 22, 2010
Yesterday was a sucky day, it's like a day where nothing is right, and since Morning i woke up, everything just went wrong. First, i woke up late, skipped 1st class, rushed to school and forgot about my packed lunch, got on bus and i was thinking i should use my headset instead which i accidently broke 1 side of it instead, right, i was damn sian at that moment already, reached mrt and quarrelled with someone, got in sch and someone was still having cold war with me, like wtf? Fine, somehow i today found out that i lost my jacket the day before, so its proven that my days ahead for these week aint gonna be smooth. That sucks but its life, i'm glad at least i still got dar and clique with me, somehow when i'm with them, everything don't really go wrong. I've been thinking for the past few days, am i dreaming or did he change alot already, someone kept telling me i'm not dreaming but to me now, i still think that im dreaming, it doesnt seem true, it just feels like a limited time period only and i will start going crazy depressing the whole day like a retard all over again. I'm not facing the facts becos i don't wanna get to hurt already, enough of 2 years being a fool. I know his nice to me now but i guess it's time i must see if im meant for him anot, what if all the long being nice to me was just a show? I don't know what i will react if i know the truth again, i don't feel secure like last time, i don't really trust much people either, it's like they can be nice to me for this second of time becos of a motive and fucking ditch me later after that. Sometimes i wonder who are true to me, like seriously those that really will share the fun, joy and pain with me, even if we bitch each other, we are still best friends ever, but nahh, i think i do have them just that i may not realise it. Thinking about some stuffs recently too, was wondering if i'm suppose to not get to close with my other clique that much alr, even if they say they dont think that im irritating, i think i'm getting into their nerves already. Wtf, i just feel like hating myself at this moment now. I wonder for those without friends, how they really feel..? Cause sometimes i really hope that i dont really have that much friends, being alone at times feels better, even if its damn depressing but i guess being alone with my own space is damn nice. Lately, i like being at home at night and watching tv @ 9pm till 10. Blocks everything else aside and just camp at the tv on my sofa and relax, feels damn relaxing and stressless. Everyone is going against me lately, right, apparently to them now, i'm a flirt and heartbreaker just becos i have alot of guy friends and damn close, seriously wtf? If thats the big deal, you all can ask those guys to not be my friend what, i know you people are capable in doing it. ;D I'm fine alone, lies to myself and i don't really care much either, I know i would be crying like a bitch if i don't even have a friend, but i know my clique will always be there for me, i guess? Hmm..or maybe i shouldn't be so confident about it, who knows what would happen next. I want a new laptop soon, i want my own room, i want study hard but i can't, i want to stay at home but that's hard if i hear people nagging at me like no tomorrow, super irritating can. I shall save money soon, as i have to pay for my own hp bills now, gonna pay my this month bills by next week, so i guess next week, imma not eat in school! Homework in school are yet done, guess i shall work on it like damn soon if not i have to stay till late night everyday already which i don't like it when i have school now, overslept are for sure! =x Moody days ahead for me, hope that's normal. I miss my bed now, i feel like tucking myself in my blanket on my bed and just sleep, i rather being dreaming now as it's not true, nothing will go wrong inside a dream even if it's a nightmare. Guess i should be going off now, shall skip the next 1hour of class and meet Jolene at amk hub already, meeting Cutie Shuki at night tooo, getting my BRS costume from her! YAY!
P.S I MISS YOU!
Thursday, April 15, 2010 Y Thursday, April 15, 2010
My Love is back from CHINAAAA! ❤ And i am super duper hyper uber happy about it! 6 weeks of fights between us, just becos we didn't see each other. LOL! But his back now, so for the start, it's sweet, we haven't quarrel yet. Somehow, i feel that he changed abit..to the way i wanted it to be, but still very manipulative. He got me 2 boxes of pocky that can't be found in SG & a headset which was suppose to be speakers but nevermind, and lastly, a damn awesome blazer for me but i'm gonna share it with my sis as it looks damn formal for work! ❤ School @ 8am and it's 2am now, guess i shall head to bed now, since he went to bed already. Meeting him after school and i can't wait! ❤ Thanks Dar for all the gifts, I Love You! ❤
Headset, Tiramisu & Red Wine Pocky!❤
Blazer!❤
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