Friday, March 26, 2010 Y Friday, March 26, 2010
Now i'm depressed again when I thought everything was over..I dropped myself into another hell again. Why do I keep on having fights with you over and over again, but yet you just don't fucking trust me. I just want some fucking trust, is it so hard..? You should have known how much i love you and i won't even do stupid stuffs. Why can't i have close friends to share my sorrows and pain. Why can't i even have jokes with them..? So what if my best friend is a guy and calls me his Girlfriend..? We are just fucking joking lah! Why must you make it like as if I did something stupid that shouldn't be done. Why must you make me feel so cheap that being with guys mean i'm flirting with them or some sort one. Fuck lo, seriously, i'm tired of all this nonsenses, do i even have any good points for you to love and trust me..? Sighs, i don't even know what i'm typing now either. I only know that i wanna numb myself up, i swear someone is gonna be mad at me soon too, even Twinneh. x.x
Cuts & Numbs~
Thursday, March 25, 2010 Y Thursday, March 25, 2010
Back from CHALET! Time to update my blog even if there is only afew photos only~ ❤
Day 1 @ 21/03/2010
Time check: 1.30pm
Meeting Location: Jasmine Twinneh's house~ ❤
Firdaus & Jerome came over my place to meet me while i was doing my last minute packing for Chalet. (didn't wanna miss out anything) Waited for Yanmei to call me as she was suppose to meet us to go down Jasmine's house due to her forgetting how to get down alone. Met up on the Bus and down we went to Jasmine's house to wait for Terence, i panic as the original meetup with the rest was suppose to be 2+ @ Pasir Ris Inter. Gahh, lucky I did tell those meeting there that the time change till 3+. Terence was late & I was pissed! =x Bused down Pasir Ris & I listen song till I fell asleep. Kazu suddenly called from overseas which i thought was some idiot prank calling me. Shocked & was happy to hear his voice! xDD Decided to go fetch him at airport that night. Reached Downtown & I went on max speed to go check in, got keys & went in to put our bags @ around 3.45pm. Miho called & tell me she was on her way to chalet to pass me the cake. Went out and take from her, Ice cream cake~~ Onlined at chalet & was talking to Dar which apparently He was mad at me somehow. Sighs, no choice, i still had to talk to him no matter what. Decided on the sleeping which side with the rest and i wanted CORNER with the WALL next to me. Heh. Ate dinner with the guys and we went back to prepare before we went down to airport. Continue quarrelling online & I broke down till 8.30 which we planned to go airport by then. Trained over & camps @ Terminal 1 till 10.30+ and KAZU IS BACK! Heh. I missed you dearly, my class partner! LOL! Glad to see you back in 1 piece! Commotions happened.. Kazu went back with his brother by cab so the rest of us went back by last train. All our face so shag alr yet the guys went drinking outside the room. I was still quarrelling by then, GAHH! Was pissed with Jerome as he drank alot also, Irwin was drunk too, except MATTHEW~ Kazu came over after that, he bought presents for me~ Thanks alot! Love them real much! Many inside story happens and i shall not mention after that.. Many of them were dead after they shower and eating supper @ MAC. I went to drink and had Heart To Heart Talk with the guys that were still awake, drinking Baileys! ❤
Matthew Bestfriend ❤
Day 2 @ 22/03/2010
Time check: 9am
Location:Pasir Ris Downtown Chalet Room 1704/1705.
I somehow fell asleep @ around 5+ am & shared the bed with Mattmao. 2 beds cramp with 5 people, how awesome! LOL! Woke up @ around 8+ as i heard commotions outside the room & saw Firdaus, Glenn, Gin talking to Jerome. Went out and check about what they were talking about, which somehow i was also having hangover at the same time too. My face was like so CMI with messyhair~ So i went back to the room and washed up~ Look at how the rest was sleeping and laugh my ass out, Especially how Choon Yong & YanMei slept~ So CUTE! =x I woke the rest up @ 11+ while i was using my netbook as we all wanted to go Wild Wild Wet in the afternoon. Went to have breakfast with Firdaus, Jerome, Irwin & Mattmao bf @ MAC while Glenn tried to get some sleep~ Heh. Epic reaction from him everytime he tried to shoot people. AHBENG! Came back and i really disturb all of them to wake up and get ready. 8 free tickets to WWW, waited for Priscilla & Kazu to come over and we all head there with our swimming stuffs~ Its been damn long since i last swam and i still wanna go swimming with them, damn fun lah. Heh. After swimming, some stuffs happen and I was seriously damn pissed. Kazu went drinking without hesitating and got himself in trouble. It almost freak me out too as i cried abit! GAHH! =x I panic like 1 crazy women who can't control her temper. Went to get dinner with Kazu, Miho and Firdaus. They booked BBQ pit though but i knew that it wont be filling for me so yupps~ After that i went back to my netbook and MSN-ing with Dar..Quarrelled as usual and he went off. Went to sing Kazu his belated birthday song with ICECREAM CAKE! The cake was nice and finger licking good. Thanks Miho! And Guess how we cut the cake, with my watson card! xDD I went emo-ing after that & the guys asked me to join them drinking, mixed Coke with Chivas and i drank like as if it was only coke, played Monster hunter at the same time with them. 1 hour later or something, I knew I didn't felt that normal already and i told them not to worry about me as when i'm drunk, I only stay at 1 spot and start laughing to myself only. But that day, I was laughing and almost cried i think..? Both my legs were damn pain too, due to the blueblacks and i troubled the guys to stay up the whole night taking care of me as they were afraid something happen to me. SORRY! I only know that i really slept damn well that night after i drank. Alot of them slept damn early, earlier then me when they didn't even do anything. LOLS! I had weird dreams.. but i know that i did wake up and go back to sleep alot of times with usual routine of rubbing my eyes and stretching. HAHAHAH! JOKE!
Wild wild wet~
The Girls @ Wild Wild Wet~
The Guys @ Wild Wild Wet~
Twinneh~
OREO ICE CREAM CAKE!
Blow the cake~
Day 3 @ 23/03/2010
Time check: 7am
Location:Pasir Ris Downtown Chalet Room 1704/1705.
I woke up @ 7+ due to some random sms from 1 of my friends. Had a nice sleep that night due to drinking, & i guess i'm addicted to drink nowadays, somehow it makes me sleep better. Napped awhile more and got up @ 9 to pack my stuffs. I didn't have hangover somehow, maybe i had enough sleep before, which was good lah, if not i think i should have puke already. Brushed my teeth & went to wake the rest up. Somehow I just know that most of the guys will go shower due to them wonderful bed hair when they wake up. Irritated them to quickly wake up and pack up but all of them were just stuck on the bed. DAMN! All took their own sweet time to shower and prepared for the check out. I told myself, if i ever go holiday overseas with them, it will be damn hard to get back to SG as they sure late get on plane. LOL! =x No offence uhh! Rushed off to check out and all of us went MAC to have breakfast. My breakfast was waiting for me at home, HOME COOKED FOOD! Heh. Bused back home and fell asleep while sms-ing. Reached home, showered, ate, onlined & i dropped dead on my bed till 8pm. Chatted with my mummy that i missed alot for the past 3 days and told her about the chalet~ Msn'ed with the rest about outing for the week & ended the day. I remembered that all of us never took group photo! Sians man. Super BUNENG lah~ I'm SAD! =x Nevermind, there's always next time!❤
*I Miss Chalet & if there is a chance to have chalet with my this group of juniors again, i swear it would be more fun and organize. I love E.P.I.C CLIQUE! Thanks for all the joy and laughter i had with you guys for the 3 days, thanks for sharing my problems and cheering me up!❤ * LOVES!
Sunday, March 21, 2010 Y Sunday, March 21, 2010
I Love this photo that i took today after a photoshoot. It's like super nice can, i like the angle too~ Hoho. I look Mature in this photo, idk why~ Anw, alot of people like this photo in facebook when i uploaded it. =x * LIKE x10000* Heh. Tmr is Chalet day like finally, waited like dunno how long already` GAHH! And some idiot is finding me quarrel now, super pissed! Got to go~ Upload photo soon!
Tuesday, March 16, 2010 Y Tuesday, March 16, 2010
To Mr Kurayami Kazukii Mummy ❤!
Though you are in China now and it's hard to contact you thru the phone, i shall dedicate this post to you in compensate to it.
I'm glad I have known you for the past going 1 year thru school.- Thanks for being my friend up till now.
- Thanks for pulling me into cosplay and made me quite addicted to it. Thanks for helping me with all the homeworks in school.
- Thanks for always irritating me with all your nonsense by talking 24/7 about games to me and the others everytime i'm with you.
- Thanks for being there to endure my nonsenses too and up till now still on it.
- Thanks for helping me thru games when i'm stuck or lazy to play it.
- Thanks for being such a entertaining friend if not i think i'll be bored to the max already.
- Thanks for everything that you did & let us do our best for our 2nd year final project together.
Lastly, Happy 19th Birthday to you, Handsome! Good luck in everything you do and hope luck this time won't be so evil towards you. *evilgrins* See ya at Chalet~ xDDDD
Loves,
Zhiying(Your Son)❤.
Saturday, March 13, 2010 Y Saturday, March 13, 2010
t's been i don't know how long since i last blog, so since i got photos, why not..? Finally watched Alice in Wonderland today with my Junior clique @ The Cathay. Awesome movie, it felt like as if i'm playing Monster Hunter too. Damn Epic when i kept telling them about the fight and why Alice like never get any damage or something one. LOL! After movie went over to Jcube to find Matthew Boyfriend and his friend, Hao before he went to REBEL to Club till he drop again~ Super playboy leh! Sibei BU NENG sia! TSK! Went to walk walk with Clique around town and last stop, Cine, saw Juliet, Marcus, Sara & the usual brother clique, just that Adrian went back home with his gf already. Trained home after that and i fell asleep in the train. GAHH! Super tired, reached home and started camwhoring like a retard. Webcam-ed with Dar and he suddenly mood swing till don't want talk to me. *sighs* Okays, time to think about what to do tmr and should i just head out alone to find a job~ Nights!
8 x Alice in Wonderland Tickets~
Big Eyes~ Heh!
;DD
Sunday, March 07, 2010 Y Sunday, March 07, 2010
Muse-Undisclosed Desire
I know you suffered
But I don't want you to hide
It's cold and loveless
I won't let you be denied
Soothe me
I'll make you feel pure
Trust me
You can be sure
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
You take your lovers that you're wicked and divine
You may be a sinner
But your innocence is mine
Please me
Show me how it's done
Tease me
You are the one
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
Please me
Show me how it's done
Trust me
You are the one
I want to reconcile the violence in your heart
I want to recognize your beauty is not just a mask
I want to exorcise the demons from your past
I want to satisfy the undisclosed desires in your heart
Thursday, March 04, 2010 Y Thursday, March 04, 2010
New hairstyle FTW, so irritating~ Anyway, Jiaye is in China-Chengdu now already and the worst part is his sick~ T_T I can't take care of him, GAHH! Don't like this feeling and my feelings now are complicated till its getting numb. I don't know why am i so popular too, Twinneh and settled now for hers and im lingering still. I'm getting very vexed over the chalet stuffs too, stuffs now settle still and i can see that the bookings are filling up soon~ $384 for 2 rooms @ Pasir Ris NTUC~ GAHH, HOW SIA? Okays, exams in 1 week time, Can't wait for it to end soon. Staying over at Jasmine Twinneh's house this friday, i miss her bed now alr, so shiok, her bed so big & we are watching Alice in Wonderland in 3D this friday tooo. First time i watch movie with her and the rest of the clique~ Love them to the max already~
New Hairstyle on 280210~ ❤
Sora @ my place~
Leonard~ xDDD ❤
Kazu Mummy~ ❤
Miho~
I Love this photo that i took today after a photoshoot. It's like super nice can, i like the angle too~ Hoho. I look Mature in this photo, idk why~ Anw, alot of people like this photo in facebook when i uploaded it. =x * LIKE x10000* Heh. Tmr is Chalet day like finally, waited like dunno how long already` GAHH! And some idiot is finding me quarrel now, super pissed! Got to go~ Upload photo soon!
