Wednesday, January 27, 2010 Y Wednesday, January 27, 2010
Today is a special occasion, It's the first person in J.A.C.Z.Z's birthday and that person is super important in our group. She is Purple in colour, loudest in the clique and is a BARNEY, yupps, none other than our JOLENE CHU SY~ ^^ She is always the one who will lead the rest in how to plan A.C.Z.Z's birthday till a limit that sometimes she don't even want to care anymore as it's easy to get fed up. Yet she never fails to plan a surprise birthday for us, presents made by her will always be handmade and memorable! I still remember my 18th birthday, she made 18 紫玫瑰 into a bouquet and it was very nice~ Love it! ❤ Thanks alot girl & of cos the rest too~ I gladly appreciated it alot..especially when i need someone to talk to that time, she will always be there with the rest of the clique. She always have alot of weird funny ideas in mind which makes all of us bond together even more, wonder without her, what will happen to our clique now..? Yet for now, we are very loving and always caring for each other, J.A.C.Z.Z will be together now and forever till the earth stop turning.
Jolene DAJIE,
Thanks for being such a wonderful friend for the past few years and the for the upcoming..I'm glad I got to know you and hang out with you and the rest of the clique during secondary school. Although there were alot of ups and downs, we all make it through which led our friendships bond even stronger, even if we get mad at each other easily, we tend to forgive each other soon after that, that's what true friends are for. Thanks for giving me a hand when i had a bad relationship breakup 2 years ago with the rest and carried me back to class when i broke down straight after recess when you still had a back injury~ Even though i'm still stuck in the same spot, you still gave me some time to ask and hear my rants about him, Thanks for all those concern given by you. With your warmest hugs whenever i'm down, I will always be okay after that and that's because I know you guys will be there for me always.
Now that you are finally older by another year, I hope for all the best for you. Hope you find your true love soon and remember to let us know who is that special person~ Share your worries and stress with us as keeping too much is not good. Hope you get good results in studies, have lots of money and all your wishes to come true soon~ Finally our clique get to celebrate your birthday after so long due to all the clashes of Chinese New year and school, though our plans weren't really very awesome and totally failed from the start, may it be a memorable one from us~ Sorry for the untidy and messy handwriting i had in the photo which include myself not able to write the card nicely too! x.x HAPPY 19TH BIRTHDAY, MY DEAR! May our love of friendship last for life. I L❤VE Y❤U ~ *flying kisses*
LOVES,
Zhiying ❤
P.S UPDATES OF JOLENE'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION BY THIS WEEK!
STAY TUNE!
AWESOME CLIQUE PHOTO! ❤
Saturday, January 23, 2010 Y Saturday, January 23, 2010
Vanila Twilight, this song is stuck in my head for the past few weeks when i'm super depress due to the past and yupps, i know i fucking miss him now and regret all the past that i did. But I never knew it was this hard to not love him or care, i don't like being manipulate by people but now i think i am. It's been going 2 weeks since i last saw him and not on webcam. I swear i miss alot of things related to him and my dearest around me will so fucking scold the fuck out of me on msn soon when they sees this. Sorry darling, i suck at moving on, you lovely should know that long enough when you first met me and knew about this r/s with him. And i found out being alone, i sure think alot and get all tense up depressing over it. I think i change alot since that day, he scolded the fuck out of me, I acted as if i didn't care most of the time but deep down, i always hides it in and keeps it a secret till i can't take it anymore. Sometimes i wonder why and how the hell i can last loving him so deeply yet sometimes i just deny it to my friends. Now i seriously think in the end, im the fucking idiot who is stupid doing all this. Ahhh, don't talk about it le, ruin mood.
Vanila Twilight is Sweeeeeeeet & I miss Soraaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaa like fuck now~
The stars lean down to kiss you,
And I lie awake I miss you,
Pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere.
Cause I'll doze off safe and soundly,
But I'll miss your arms around me
I'll send a postcard to you dear,
Cause I wish you were here.
I watch the night turn light blue,
But it's not the same without you,
Because it takes two to whisper quietly,
The silence isn't so bad,
Till I look at my hands and feel sad,
Cause the spaces between my fingers
Are right where yours fit perfectly.
I'll find repose new ways,
Though I haven't slept in two days,
Cause cold nostalgia chills me to the bone.
But drenched in Vanilla twilight,
I'll sit on the front porch all night,
Waist deep in thought because when I think of you.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
I don't feel so alone.
As many times as I blink I'll think of you... tonight.
I'll think of you tonight.
When violet eyes get brighter,
And heavy wings grow lighter,
I'll taste the sky and feel alive again.
And I'll forget the world that I knew,
But I swear I won't forget you,
Oh if my voice could reach back through the past,
I'd whisper in your ear,
Oh darling I wish you were here.
Wednesday, January 20, 2010 Y Wednesday, January 20, 2010
OMG, KILLS SELF~ I think i'm super stupid and if my class people sees this, their reaction sure is: Glad you know~ =.= Sheesh, i don't know who to find now to rant stuffs, Peiyun baby is not here for me! T_T I need VERA LAOPO, yet all of them got boyfriend already, forget me. TMD! I sad le laaaa, then i how? I wanna cry..i need shoulder to cry on..where all my beloved sisters go too? FUCK MY LIFE PLEASE! When i'm emo, see my phone contacts, i don't even know who to call/sms already. Piang, sighs..I need to go back to the past..I miss the fun with clique instead. And i'm coughing till i'm dying already. T_T
BUSY WEEK AHEAD~ FUCK LIFE, I NEED A GETAWAY TRIP~
Tuesday, January 19, 2010 Y Tuesday, January 19, 2010
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH! FUCK MY LIFE~ I know i screwed up alot of things, i don't know what got into me. I know alot people is hating me for being the same stubborn girl 2 years before..but i really can't help it. I'm sorry to all~ I know i can't let go, but i seriously dunno how.. Remembering the past is a torture, somethings that i don't like to keep on going through. I seriously kept everything to myself to a limit le. I'm tired of missing you and hiding everything to myself le. I guess it's time i need to stand up and face the facts. Stop here for now..I'm tired and i think im bullshyting now already. MEH!
我現在只能擔心你, 守護著你, 希望那一天會回來..
Monday, January 18, 2010 Y Monday, January 18, 2010
你怎麽变得让我不认识你了..明明你的心变了还说 是我的错..我怎麽一夜之间像被打垮..原来我一直都是那个很爱很爱你的大笨蛋..
Friday, January 15, 2010 Y Friday, January 15, 2010
So i'm here blogging as i had said that i will in plurk yesterday. Bloggie is dead alr, yes i know that, no new posts nor photos, due to my eye infections, lately i don't take photos that much alr, even if i did, it's when i put on my makeups to cover it. Anyway, back to topic..2010 is not a good year for me or even ah kor i guess?
Since monday, both of us has been damn depressed over our own personal stuffs yet we can't do anything shits about it. I tried my best to do most of the things already yet it was taken by granted. I called, smsed and did everything i could, even tried to control my temper alr yet you just kept on thinking that im fine. I'm even trying to keep everything to myself and crying myself to bed. I feel so unsecure, so lost, so hopeless and i never felt that pathetic before, or maybe i did, 1 yr+ ago..yet i told myself before that i didn't want that feeling ever again, yet it's still you who made me like this. Sometimes i wonder why i worried about you so much and not moving on like i always wanted too. It's like so fucked up, it screws my life sometimes. I hate to be this lonely and unsecure. I want to be pamper and loved yet i can't be selfish. I don't like to act infront of people that im strong when i know im not but i have too. Even sleeping gives me problems, having weird scary nightmares telling me that something may happen soon, without me knowing it. My heart is hurting in slience and it's crying till i'm losing all my blood.. It's been a very emotional week till i'm starting to hate myself. I so want to have a long holiday for me to get away from this place..but i know myself it is not possible..
Okays, i'll be back soon to blog, maybe with photos too, depends...
Darl, I Miss You Very Badly~
Monday, January 11, 2010 Y Monday, January 11, 2010
Today is my most depressing day and i know i neglected my blog for very long as i jumped to DEVIANTART already. =x Sorry all yet my blog is dead long ago oso wad.. So im glad that my beloved friends get to go polytechnics yet for me, i just went depressing over 2 years ago not studying hard. I know i should not be grieving over yet i am still sad, that's all. So i guess the only thing i can do now is Study hard in ITE. SOY'09, i doubt i have plans too. Time to drama for now, blog soon with more updates. ^^
