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Saturday, May 31, 2008 Y Saturday, May 31, 2008

Watched CHRONICLES OF NARNIA: PRINCE CASPIAN just now with Laiguan and Jianan. It was quite fun going out with them today after so long. I'll rate the movie 3 out of 5 stars as i think it's okay okay only, abit ridiculous already. Anyway, Jianan damn unlucky keep kena pinch by me everytime he says a wrong word or for nothing. Sorry uhh, hope ya not mad with me. Anyway, good new for me, I'm going to THE CLICK FIVE's concert tomorrow! WOOHOO! All thanks to Eugene di, he got a pair of free tickets and he msged to all his friends yet i was the first to msg him, so i got it~ Excited excited excited! I'm getting a limited poster too. How cool can this go man, is this luck or what? Yet, i rather have more luck on romance instead, and if i did, i swear i won't make the same mistake again. Never will i let him go and love him with my heart. My mind is not functioning well now either, it's like i'm not thinking when i want too. Too high le ba, What to do. I feel empty now too, missing him like nobody business. Who cares if he has a gf now and it's my good friend, i still have the rights to miss him. Come scold me like i care and give a fcuk. Chatted with Shaun on the phone for awhile just now and i was like telling him how much i missed him and jy coming to my hse last time to use computer and had chats at my house. Damn sweet la, yet don't know why suddenly the conversation just hanged up so i just went to shower. Now i'm sneezing like hell again, don't know which idiot is scolding me or which hottie is missing me. Blahs~ I wanna go watch some dramas before i go bed..Blog tomorrow~ ^^

This was what i found on yahoo with my bloglink~ Coolios~

Boy, time will state everything that is happening around us~
I'm sure~

Labels: princecaspian

Y Saturday, May 31, 2008

BORED BORED BORED! Holidays are dreadful if there's no event or what shyt one. Planning of accompany sis today but it is cancel as she's going Bras Brasah instead now. Stuck at home is boring, i'm too lazy to do my 10 years series today, which left with either i go out with Laiguan or find some other friends, if not it's left with packing my cupboard. I'm irritated today somehow, i don't know why too. Another bad feeling that something is gonna happen to me today or soon but i'm not sure. How sia? Annoying man~ I wanna go shop for clothes, presents and alot of stuffs, but the problem is MONEY, i'm not those rich kids who has parents who just give them money whenever they want. Those are also called " SPOILT BRATS ". No offence uhh, but that's true, it's okay if they don't admit cause they want almost everything they can't get even if it's their friend's dearest. Blahs, bullshyting again and i don't know what's going on in my mind now, seriously. I'm kind of awake from my dream, the truth of being alone, shyt, now i kind of sound like someone in class, LONELY --- ~ I WANT A BOYFRIEND yet i'm afraid to love so my boyfriends are all my dramas, musics and dearest things around me~ Ohya, i bought myself a star necklace the other day, now i'm like wearing it where ever i go. though it look simple with some glitter yet it represents something. *Smile~ Anyway, i shall go shower first, i feel weird now, uncontrollable mood swings~ :x

P.S I WANT MORE STAR NECKLACES OR ITEMS~ *Hints~*

Boy, i kind of miss you alot now, for no reasons~

Labels: star

Friday, May 30, 2008 Y Friday, May 30, 2008

Firstly, here's the pictures of me getting the shot though it's just a back view and the plaster the cute doctor pasted it on my wound. ^^

Just finish watching the last episode of the Channel 8 show, kind of bullshyt la. Like as if we can really go back and change the time. If can, i'll be glad that i want to go back to 2 years ago, the day Jiaye asked me for patch and days after that would be a happy one, but BULLSHYT la. That's not possible and i must be dreaming~ Even if we could go back to the past, i also hope that i could see Marcus happy with KaiJuan yet not like now, half giving up hope those kind waiting like some idiot like me. Dumb right but this is what some people call devoted guy[CHI QING NAN REN] where to find sia. Anyway, and to hope that all my dearest friend will have a better relationship and studies future instead of now. Plus today my sixth sense is also telling me that she's back too and it's very strong, am i right this time? I know i am and it wont be wrong. So many days since i even seen him too, Holidays this time round is kind of cold and quiet. Days having a boyfriend pestering or quarrelling with is gone for real, i don't miss you but i miss you like fcuk. I don't mean to hurt any guys out there that like me or what but i guess i'm not really for another relationship after the broke up which lasted for so long. I still need time to think it over or heal..love is unfair and cruel at times. I listened to Genie Zhuo's 被你爱过我很快乐 song today, singing it over and over again, and now i'm depressed like fcuk for no reason. No more mood to blog more already, i won't be home tomorrow too. Gonna go accompany my sis work and i'll get $2/hr better than nothing at least i'll be slacking quite abit.

Ohya, last but not least,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ACE BOIBOI~

I LOVE YOU!MUACKS~

P.S I really pray that sis and i won't get some liver problem or what, or i'm sure i'll just go faint and die instead of suffering more.

Boy, Anata no Koto Dakishimetai,

Kono Kimochi Katsugi, Ugokasuno,

Sagashite Nakushita Kokoro no Kizuga,

Tachimukau Tsuyosa Ni Kawareta No Wa, Okaeri Ga Attakara,

Okaeri SweetHeart. Matte Te Ne, Mou Sugu Tsukukara,

Ai Wo Arigatou~

Labels: Needlesandlove

Y Friday, May 30, 2008

My hand hurts though i think i'm just exaggerating it! Stupid blood test, now i lost don't know how many ML of blood. Seriously, i hate injections though i always think that they are so cool. The doctor was cute but over humor already, i totally sian 1/2 after he finish collecting my blood into some small tube container and gently paste a plaster on my wound, asking me to press on it for awhile more. Blood was still oozing out, like Ouch? My hand totally went cold plus abit numb and throughout the process i was actually shivering, LMAO right? Sis also went for blood test but ends up she looks more okay than me. I feel pathetic now, gosh~ Had early lunch with mum and sis after that, it was very filling too. I bought myself a Green Tea Macflurry yet it didn't taste as nice as expected. Reached home and i was the first to rush to sleep, too tired liao plus in mum's room, aircon~ SHIOK! i had a weird dream but it was sweet~ ^^ Anyway, i got to go study as promise. Blog tonight~ BYEEEE~

Labels: bloodtest

Thursday, May 29, 2008 Y Thursday, May 29, 2008

卓文萱 - 被你愛過我很快樂

我们肩靠肩的站着看着
不停流动的河

这阵子麻烦你了
被我的爱拉住了
终于你要走了

还是想叫你亲爱的

而自由是你最爱的

回忆不断倒转着

时间却又不停的

彩排我们转过身

被你爱过我真的很快乐

被你爱过我更懂幸福了

你紧紧抱我温柔的我好痛

突然我才懂你不是不爱我

记得一定要好好的
不管遇见了什么人
你在我耳边说着
声音却飞的好远

我也终于勇敢了

被你爱过我真的很快乐
被你爱过我更懂幸福了
你紧紧抱我温柔的我好痛
突然我才懂你不是不爱我

被你爱过我真的很快乐

被你爱过我更懂幸福了

你紧紧抱我温柔的我好痛

突然我懂你没有我更辽阔

被你爱过我真的很快乐

只是成长要经过悲伤的

现在我相信那最深刻的爱

不一定会陪着我们到老的

Labels: 被你爱过我真的很快乐

Y Thursday, May 29, 2008

I'm kind of in depression mood now, went out lunch with mum and sis at jack's place. Sis wanted to treat mum but since i was home, i got treated as well, so it was a good deal though. Yet after that we went to the polyclinic as i wanted to know what happen to my eye as it was yellowish and my teachers always say i got what sickness or what shyt de. So my sis and i were waiting for our turn, told the doctor about it and she said maybe we got liver problem or what one. We are suppose to go back tomorrow for blood test too and my reaction was OMFG, NO? I have phobia for injections although i think that they are cool yet not on me?!?! Damn depressed at that moment but yet i went to meet some friends at bishan library after that though till now i'm still at state of shocked, what if i'm really diagnoise having liver problem, will i really die earlier? He should be glad too, no more sufferings from me already and have a good time with her, am i right? BULLSHYT~ Shall not talk about it, i shouldn't talk about this at now already, i'm so worry sick. What if i just die tomorrow, who will remember or miss me? ANYONE? *sighs~

Boy, 被你爱过我很快乐~

But will you miss me if i'm really gone?

Labels: liverprob

Wednesday, May 28, 2008 Y Wednesday, May 28, 2008

Here are the pictures of the food i cooked for my F&N practical exam~ Although i was kind of rush and didn't know what exactly my mind was thinking i manage to finish it nicely. Mr Ong said i am able to be a successful housewife already, *laughs~ Anyway, Jason's Chawamushi was great and i ate almost everything, Randall taught him one so what to do, Of course it would be nice~ *Thumbs up for you 2! ^^ Greatly recommended by ZHIYING~ My mood was still alright until that Fucking VP NG MONG KHENG came to catch my skirt, FUCK YOU BITCH~ I'm so gonna complain you soon to the MOE, complained to my mom about that Bitch VP and she's not happy with her too. *CHEERS! May head to Town or Bugis later, i guess? Or i'll just stay home and sleep~ Enjoy the pictures for now~ I wanna go slack and watch some shows already~

The 4 Main DishesClose up of my YUMMITORI~STEAMMY-TOFU-EGGYLIOUS
PUR-PRAWNGY~
CONFUSED-SOUP~
Appealing to you?Wanna try any of the above?

Boy, i wonder how your birthday would be like this year~

Is she gonna give you a memorable one? =x

Labels: FNN

Tuesday, May 27, 2008 Y Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I just saw Marcus's new post on his blog and totally hurt me liao lo. Sighs, i want go EMO liao, thanks Marcus~ I go die liao la, say me till i majiam should go and die cause my 2 sisters win me lo. RAHHH! Now i'm officially angry with you for today~ HMPF!

Labels: SIMARCUS

Y Tuesday, May 27, 2008

I'M SO SO TIRED NOW! Tomorrow is F&N practical le, how how how~ I scare i screw up the whole thing~ Damn scare now la~ Today slack and draw my garnishing plan but i accidently dripped my chocolate ice-cream onto my paper and now i'm dead. I earned S$0.30 for my nuffnang advertisment and Aaron got S$0.60, $0.30 more than me, how is that possible when both of us are on the same one. Forget it, we're just playing with the thing only. Took some pictures just now when Michelle called and asked me to help her buy her stuffs at a last minute basis. And i'm done with my chicken cubes, only that they must be marinated tomorrow and grilled. Hope i don't fail orelse i'll faint! Not yet sure what i'll do after F&N too, lets see then.. Shall go pack my stuffs before i wake up late tomorrow and panic.

State of hell; Between You & Me~

XOXO~

Boy, where have you gone too for so long?

Monday, May 26, 2008 Y Monday, May 26, 2008

Today was the paper, I did everything which i can remember and hope that i can get a B3 now. Adeline's magic notes helped me abit too and seriously i think this year's paper was way easier than last year's one. He also came to school just to not stay at home and i think that is stupid but who cares, it's not my problem now. Hmm, thinking back about my past, i still remember how YiXian and i got together in maple which most of my friends thought that i was 2-timing that idiot. Seriously, that's just a game only and they took it so seriously. If only time could go back, i won't be the same anymore, i swear. Yet, time changed and everyone is changing so is him and her. Today i finally found someone alike me, my Darling Ivy. Almost everything we do end up in the same situation just like our boyfriends relationship though it's completely stranger to us. Now to me it's like she may be my long lost sister or what. I'm tired today, very tired yet i just felt that i had something to do which is still not done but not sure what is it. Anyway, i'm not in a mood now to blog more, shall go chat on the phone with my Darling Ivy~

P.S AHEM's sister who said that i looked like a china girl, please look at yourself in the mirror before saying me. F3. =.=

Boy, sometimes i wonder if you did think about what happen in the first place,

I'm sure you are wrong about this love with her,

Yet i can't save you as you have chosen the path,

I shall go on without you for now~ (:

Labels: chineseOs

Sunday, May 25, 2008 Y Sunday, May 25, 2008

For once, i really feel so useless in everything i do. Even if i work hard to get something done, it never seems to succeed just like losing my love one to a friend. I tried my very best to get over it and continue with a new life without him. Telling myself that i must keep on going to achieve better stuffs in life. I knew i rely too much on him or my other loved one who care much more than him. I know my weakness and kept on trying to change yet noone seen anything but looking down on me. Even if he can say he didn't look down on me or think that i'm a failure, to me i will be thinking that he just don't wanna hurt me more. I hate myself now, I hate being in this world and i rather die in those poor little childrens who died innocently in the earthquake. We never know what will happen tomorrow, i said my piece to you, i broke all those promises between us, i just wanted to prove that i was right yet you all think that it's always me who is at fault. Am i so pathetic that i need you to sympathize me? Losing true friends that i trust before and a boyfriend over small matter, enough is enough. You guys who hope i suffered for life have succeed, life is never predictable yet you all predict that i will get my retribution was right. I'm tired, really tired, just hoping i could end my life off yet thinking about those who loved me, i restrain myself about that thought and hope that i could take over those little children instead again. I'm not clever nor stupid, i'm just very slow in everything i do and need much more time to understand, just like how i understand why you left me for her instead. You 2 may look happy now and never thought about any problem that you 2 might face in near future but i know myself that i learnt a lesson about not thinking before hand. Time heals all wound yet it does not work for me till now, it's been 3 month plus and i'm still at the starting point. Who cares if i'm nagging all this shyt and people cursing me. You guys can continue looking down on me thinking that i'm just useless but 1 day i know myself i will stand above you all, getting back all the stuffs that are mine in the first place. Go on torture me with all your sweet moments, you never know what each of you can be doing behind each other back but i know myself what the ending might be and i'll be the one laughing at you 2 in the end. Go on acting showing me that you love him more than i do, when you yourself know what the truth actually is. Remember this, what mine will always be mine in the end and dont say love can't be force cause everything has it's own way. Letting him go is not the only way out, tell it to yourself instead, don't take his love for granted, if you don't love him tell him and stop letting him think that you do, that's a way out too but you won't understand. Just like returning me the necklace, you already state something to me, which was kind of insulting for me to think back again. Yet returning him is still an option for you as your mind is thinking of others things to deal with me somehow. No matter how rich you are, how smart, how tall, how pretty, how things always go your way, you aren't better than me, i don't mind losing to you yet you will never know what actually all this things mean even if you are faster in learning.

Boy, i know you still cared abit for me~

Yet it's just not the right time for us to get together,

There's still her hindering around,

I'm sorry~

Labels: uselessfailure

Y Sunday, May 25, 2008

23May2008

School was great as it was the last day of the term, ending it off with our class getting the most cleanest class was shocking as we didn't got anything before for 5 years in Peirce. We got $30 cash and having Mrs Yau promising us with Strawberry Cheesecake, all of us were happy we were in 5A1, spend off the money on drinks for the class except for those absentees who didn't came, it was sad case. Class bonding were great for the girls not like those guys in class. I fell down at home for no reason and got 2 blueblack on my leg which are still swollen now but i'll be alright. After that, I went out with the Brothers in the late evening though it was kind of boring as they kept on stopping in the middle of town. I got to know alot of things which made me cry after i reached home on the phone with my Darling Ivy Bibi~ Sharing with her my stuffs and her sharing stuffs with me, both of us are in the same situation but we can't do anything. Marcus is mad at me ba, but i kept on saying sorry to him~ Not purposely make the brothers follow me on bus de hor, sorry Marcus! Don't angry with me le, treat you out next time~ That is was all about the last day of the term when i got to bed early too~

Strawberry CheeseCake~

Aaron, Jolene and me promoting Green Tea~

Mrs Yau & ME~

My injury~

24 May 2008

I got out of bed around 2+ going 3 today, which is like kind of lazy as i didn't really know what i want to do today. Quarrelled with a friend on the phone too which made my mood not so good at first, so i just went to shower so that i could cool myself off. Ate lunch while i watched Seducing Mr Robin on the internet and prepared myself for the Wedding dinner. Helped my 2 sister's with their hair and they look better when their hair is quite straight, thanks to me~ Keke~ Didn't really msg alot as my balance is going low already, i want to top up sooon but no money~ Took bus 76 to the hotel and saw Chen Wei the bride, what can i say~ Every women who are getting marry are always the prettiest of all, envy envy~ Dinner was okay though i ate alot of the cereal prawn, my favourite though there is always a consequences as i'm abit allergy to seafood. Took quite alot of pictures too~ Looking at the wedding photos of the newly wed, my mind was thinking about who will be my groom when i get married in near future. They look so sweet together and blessed by everyone there, i felt so happy for them la~ Went home after that, taking bus 76 again, msged Ace boiboi & Laiguan on the way back, got off at the 711 bus-stop as i wanted to get a drink, Sis accompanied me too~ I miss boiboi lots~ & him too.

Anyway, let the pictures do the talking now, Enjoy~

The Bride for the day~ ChenWei

Mom, Jingying & Zhiying [me]~

Jingying, Kitying, Zhiying~ ^^

Jingying & Zhiying~ (:
LiJuan, Susan, Siewlan & Sis~
Angie & Zhiying~ Pretty right? :x
Camwhoring~

Bleah~ I MISS YOU~ F3
Carrot Juice for the end of the day~

Boy, If only you could be my prince charming for life~

Labels: Weddingdinner

Saturday, May 24, 2008 Y Saturday, May 24, 2008

I'll blog about yesterday and today tonight or tomorrow~ Got to go get ready for wedding dinner tonight. I've alot to say after the tiring day yesterday which wasted my time out too. Stay tuned for pictures too~

Boy, what's wrong for being frank to you?

I know the answer will always be negative,

But i don't give a damn to it either~

Labels: staytuned

Thursday, May 22, 2008 Y Thursday, May 22, 2008

Hell day wasn't so sucky actually~ But i still hate Intensive Chinese alot, i guess i slept more than i write in class. Mrs Yau lied to us about having cheesecake today and made it tomorrow. After recess, Ling and Lynette came finding me as they wanted to return something to me, the Star Necklace i gave Shermin before we started our quarrels over Jiaye. The reaction of getting hold of it back was that it's kind of breaking up friendship and quite insulting la. Like what's the meaning of it when it was a present i promise you before and you return it to me. I know the answer now yet not all things can be return okay? You can ignore the part about putting yourself into mine, i doubt alot of people will understand that too, but don't worry i'm too lazy to spoil the relationship of you 2, my results are bad enough after having that breakup with him and shocked knowing you 2 got together. I need to struggle all the way now for good results instead of this. I must look on the bright side yet not the dull side, i had enough, enough is enough~ Mrs Teo met my mom about my results, rules rules and more rules for me now, i'm going crazy when i have noone to rely on now. Mom may get a tutor for me soon, HELP! Comments from the teachers who seen my mom aren't so bad afterall as for my report book only the results part sucks yet not for the comments made by my form teacher, first time it's about good thing and im not talkative this time round yet quiet. Went over Aaron's house after that as Ah fat, Jiaye, Charmaine Bestie, Ivan, Jessie and Genie were over there playing MahJong. Yet Ahfat, Aaron, Ivan and Jessie's bro were the ones playing while Bestie and the rest were slacking, Jiaye finished his DS game too. Crazy but that's him, so long since i talked to him too but yet still ignoring me orelse he'll just shoot me some idiotic words to piss me off. Bestie, Jessie and Genie went back first around 5 while i took over her bro in mahjong. Ivan helped me in playing actually as i was too blur today and seriously i'm bad in Mahjong, i need more practice now. Jiaye lost alot at first to Fat but won it back after i went down to meet LaiGuan as he is passing me some movie disc. Jiaye started irritating me, asking me quickly go patch back, KUKU idiot, totally no brain one, when he himself don't know do what in school yesterday. GET GIRL NUMBER SIOL, DON'T KNOW WHO UHH! =x Lalahs~ I didn't say anything, Tomorrow going out with Marcus and Gang, what should i wear? I want top up my card soon too, balance going low low low already. T.T Tired enough to continue blogging~

XOXO~

Boy, you'll understand it soon~

I'm not longing for you anymore..

Till you learnt your lesson~

I Love You~ (:

Labels: sweeetie

Wednesday, May 21, 2008 Y Wednesday, May 21, 2008

Chinese intensives are hell~ I hate them but what to do it's 'O's chinese next week. Anyway, i watched Speed Racer yesterday and actually it's a not bad show just that it's too colourful already. Modified Cars are damn cool la but those cars in the show are way impossible in real life. Tomorrow will be HELL DAY for me as it's Meet the Parents Session, My mom is gonna come school in the afternoon as Dad is not free. Who cares~ His weird today, wanted to have a chat with me which i thought was kind of sweet la but kena drag by some idiot and told me next time then talk. Seriously i have nothing to say to you until that day really comes and knowing stuffs you 2 gonna do is annoying. I rather not hear them then knowing them, stop tempting me! Mood went bad when i saw her during recess time, hoping that i could just have real magic and make her disappear is what i always wish now, IMPOSSIBLE! I hate the looks when she look at me, and come to think of it, my sixth sense is sort of telling me that something has happen, but i don't know what the hell is it. Mrs Yau is bringing her home-made love recipe Strawberry Cheesecake for us tomorrow and im looking forward for it though at first she wanted to be bias about it and give it to YuanAn only. School ended as normal today, not like Bishan Park 3pm, i pity Laiguan man while i went home and sleep for hours. 3 Weird dreams i had, 1 of it was a good one and the other 2 were nightmares. Woke up around 3+ when i heard my mom and sister quarrel, irritating but i went back to sleep. Dad just nagged at me about my stupid results, irritating but what to do. My efforts for Mid-yr wasn't that much and i need to do more next time, just like what the other thing i'm always trying to do. NEVER GIVE UP EVEN IF I FAIL~ Now i'm bored, shall go watch my Absolute Boyfriend instead~ Byeeeeeee~

XOXO~

Boy, Loving someone is not about being able to live with them,

But to not be able to live without them for life~

Get the picture, dumbass?

Labels: HELL

Tuesday, May 20, 2008 Y Tuesday, May 20, 2008

School is still as boring as ever but going to school and meeting all my beloved & insane 5a1 classmates is what i always look forward in school. My mood in the morning was ruined after i heard that Jiaye and fat went over to Shermin's house yesterday in the afternoon. Mood swing till like before recess and Mrs Yau saved us for 30mins through the intensive chinese while i had to go up library to call those slackers, Jiaye they all to come back class. I swear at that moment i was so attitude infront of them, as for her, dont give me that innocent look of thinking why am i pissed off, you know urself the most, right? Luckily, my day was so bored in school too as i was msging LaiGuan and some other friend too if not i'll be dozing off already, thanks uhh~ Plus I know alot of secrets that i wont share in this blog before some asshole come screaming into my phone and i have to hang up on him. I had a discussion with my beloved girlfriends in class about our girl's outing in the 2nd week of holiday, IM THE PLANNER! So now im still like thinking where can we go and it must be a memorable one who knows what will happen tomorrow. Ohya, that Jiaye got his new PEARL PINK DS lite and wanted to show off to me as i wanted to get it but i don't have the money, damn idiotic but what to do, that's JIAYE. Went to Coffee Bean with Charmaine Bestie as she wanted to eat her Raspberry Cheesecake then we ran to chase after her bus 130 as i wanted to go over her house and lend a dress for the wedding dinner this Saturday. Aaron came over after that and we had lunch at Charmaine Bestie's all time favorite fried rice stall, rate it 4/5 stars for it. They accompanied me to wait for bus to go Kong Meng Shan Monastery's Awareness Place as my sister work there and i promise her that i'll go over to find her. Helped her abit with the customers and i swear i damn blur but i love the environment there, good place for me to meditate and forget that jerk. We took the bus to go J8 as we wanted to head for home yet i got tempted that i drag her along to shop which leads me to get a new dress too and it cost me $25. Sweet top okay, find 1 day i'll wear it and post the pictures here. We went to Food Junction and end up eating Chocolate Paper Prata with a cup of wonderful Teh Tarik, greatly recommended. Sis bought me shirts too, so nice of her right? Anyway, i got to go change already, I'm going to watch movies with my sis and her friend as her friend has free tickets for Speed Racer, who cares if the movie is like shyt, i'm going for freeee~ Post the pictures i took later or tomorrow, i guess?

XOXO~

Boy, you are so dumb,

You never thought about what happen next time,

Are you so sure you 2 will last?

I doubt so. (:

Labels: DRESSES

Monday, May 19, 2008 Y Monday, May 19, 2008

Firstly, Pictures i took with my darling Adeline yesterday at the AJC's choir concert~

Secondly, I just got home not long after going out with LaiGuan for movies~ Made of Honour~ Great show, was abit touching though actually it was quite funny and seriously i didn't cry! I'll rate it 4/5 stars too, same as LaiGuan. We had Ichiban Sushi for dinner and i paid $10 only cause he was being sweet to pay the rest. Anyway, going out with him today was kind of awkward as we haven really go out together alone for like 2 years after we broke up. The feeling was weird but i forgot about HIM at the moment of time and we were like talking none stop about our own school life and his friends are so "UNIQUE" & "WEIRD". Now i think all my friends are normal people although some of them are abit stubborn and yet mature, but they are way better than LaiGuan's unique friends. Haas, thinking about it, going out to movies with LaiGuan is actually quite fun too, i don't mind if i can't find anyone to go to movies and find him instead. Yupps, his sweet now, not like last time but we were still young not like now, so opened-minded one. Shall stop talking about LaiGuan already, there's school tomorrow and i hope school don't end late cause i wanna go shop for clothes tomorrow if possible, wedding dinner on Saturday, who wanna accompany me? Blahs, now i'm bored, i shall go watch my Japanese Drama, Absolute Boyfriend, it's nice too~ Byeeeeeee~

Boy, if only you were there beside me again at that moment,
And I'm very sure i didn't make the wrong choice in the first place~

Labels: Madeofhonour

Y Monday, May 19, 2008

Okays, today wasn't such a bad day after all though i missed him all day long, or should i say i miss him 24/7 everyday. Who cares actually, he won't cause he got Shermin now already and i got noone. Went to AJC's Choir Concert at Esplanade with Adeline and KaiSiang, the concert was great and i can say that their choir is super good. Memories of him at Marina Square came back again just now too, when KaiSiang went there for his dinner while Adeline and i waited for him to finished. Vesak Day is Today and it's a holiday for all but so what if it is? I'm bored at home but I guess i'll go out today somehow. Maybe i'll catch a movie with LaiGuan or what ba~ That's my Ex-boyfriend for your information~ ^^ Now i'm so bored and yupps, this few days my mood is going out of control already and im very serious about it. Chinese 'O's is in 1 weeks time and i'm yet revising, but i don't really care so much now. Got to go for now and find some stupid stuffs to do as i'm really bored now and don't wanna continue to blog anymore. Bye~

Jiaye, why must you leave and take my heart along with you?

It really hurts alot without my heart with me,

do you even know that?

ILOVEYOU~

Labels: AJC

Saturday, May 17, 2008 Y Saturday, May 17, 2008

Shin Hye Sung - Dont Leave Me [English Lyrics]

Wondering if it was me who was at wrong,

I turned around and cried..

I want to give my all to you and put you by my side,

I knew that it was too late but i didn't want to let you go,

I had wanted to beg you not to go..

Everything becomes sad and my heart starts to hurt with the past memories we shared,

Because we can't be together now, my throat begins to burn inside my tears,

After your sillhouette that's going further away I said this, Please don't go..

I haven't once forgotten you,

Do you know of my foolish heart?

Have you erase all memory of me?

..But you loved me..

I feel that if you come i'll forget all those past days that you lied to me.

If you come back to me.

After this seperation all i have left is my longing for you,

I can't bear this right now as i live on with you lost,

Everything becomes sad and my heart starts to hurt with the past memories we shared,
Because we can't be together now, my throat begins to burn inside my tears,
After your sillhouette that's going further away I said this, Please don't go..

I haven't once forgotten you,
Do you know of my foolish heart?
Have you erase all memory of me?
..But you loved me..
I feel that if you come i'll forget all those past days that you lied to me.
If you come back to me...

I had believed that you'd come back to me,

But that must not be it, you must have hate me..

I can't live on after loosing you.

Come back to me...

I no longer have only you.

Even my empty heart..

I live on always just watching you, but i can't do this.

Whatever words are of no use now.

If you just come back to me,

I could forget all those painful memories,

JUST FOR YOU~

Labels: Don'tleaveme

Y Saturday, May 17, 2008

What a boring day yet at least i went to catch a movie with Ace boiboi~ The movie that i wanted to watch Accuracy of Death, i'll give it 3 out of 5 stars for this show. Actually i wanted to watch this movie alone one, luckily i found Ace boiboi to accompany me watch. Mostly it will be him who always accompany me watch movies yet now i don't have him and movies will mostly be alone for me and only myself~ I can't always count on friends too, who knows when they will betray me like what she did. Trust is not in my list already and i swear if i ever get a new boyfriend, i won't give in anymore like what i did before cause i don't gain anything in the end too. Saw Lingling at Hub too, when i was heading for the movies, guess she told her that she saw me too? I'm sure he will think that i got a new boyfriend or what but nope i don't and i don't really need one now. I'm not like you, a guy who needs pretty girls to satisfy you, i'm not stingy or whatever shyt you can think. I'm just a typical girl who just wished for a simple love relationship yet wishes don't ever come true for me. I'm still unlucky as before that's why i always lose my loved one. My blackie hamster is at the stage of dying soon, i'm sad yet at least it's not the one that Jiaye and i bought one, Autumn. That's the last thing we shared and is alive, our cute fatty hamster which he don't really care whether if it's dead or alive, i bet if it's dead i will cry like fuck just like the day he left me and i didn't know how to react but cry. Ridiculous but that's what girls always do, CRY~ Dad just scolded me being "USELESS". That hurts me but i have nothing to say. That also recalls me about last time, whenever dad scolds me or what i'll always call dardar and cry on the phone while he tells me that it's alright, i still got him with me and how much he don't want to see or hear me cry if not i wont be pretty le. Memories that are so sweet it haunts me every night. I'm starting to scare to love and just stay like this being miserable. Jeff ah kor asked me to let him know that i still love him but he knows just that he can't feel it. He already got a new girlfriend, a close friend of mine and i still don't have a place to speak out. And everytime i talked about this topic about me and him, i always wished i had a shoulder to let me lean and cry on. Now whenever i got a friend who i can lean on to cry, i don't have the courage to cry out too. I'm afraid that they'll laugh at me or whatever shyt which makes me rather to cry alone or just stay out of home somewhere in Singapore that noone can find me. Sometimes i really hope that love doesn't exist in this world and i could just live everyday happy without getting hurt or whatever one. I'm starting to lose control of myself and letting emotion take over me instead since everything i do doesn't really have a good ending, i'm giving up myself already. And if i leave this world one day, will you guys remember that ZHIYING actually exist or just forget about me? Sighs, baby boy, i miss you madly now~ T.T

Jiaye, living without you is so hard,

I'm starting to lose my breathe, strength and everything,

Hoping that i can just die peacefully with the memories you left for me.

Baby boy, i'm faithfully waiting for you to come back to me.

I LOVE YOU~

Labels: Accuracyofdeath

Y Saturday, May 17, 2008

First of all, SORRY MARCUS THAT I NEVER TURN UP IN THE END, DON'T GET ANGRY WITH ME,OKAY ~?
Sighs, i feel bad, Marcus rarely will come ask me out then this time he planned to go Pulau Ubin and he asked me along with the Brothers yet i didn't turn up due to some reasons. My mom kept saying very dangerous then why go so far there to cycle for what. Kermin also kena scolding from her parents so end up both of us never went. Sighs, it's been so long since i waited to go out with the brothers ever since Jiaye broke up with me and all of them is like avoiding me those kind except for Marcus~ ^^ His always the one who asked me out or what one, Sweet right? That's why I LOVE MARCUS as a korkor those kind. Plus at first i thought Jiaye got go, yet Marcus just said that he never turned up too, as expected by me, noone wakes him up or he's just plain lazy to continue sleeping. Sighs, bad dreams last night again, all about him~ Hmmm, now i wonder if he never go out with brothers then he will do what? Accompany his beloved gf go church uhh? I can't care so much already anyway, later his girlfriend come say me or what de. I don't like to see my best friends have boyfriends, totally hurts my heart but what to do, they are more lucky than me, especially HER. I still remember reading Adeline's email to Qngwn yesterday, it's like totally dreadful, why she also become like me le, why does all those girl kena ditch by guys de turn into an example of me one. Does those ASSHOLES ever think about our feelings? Why does guys change heart so fast too, and never turn back. Sighs, back to depress mood. Blog later~

Jiaye, do you know that living behind your shadow is dreadful~

How i wish you could say you love me for the last time..

Labels: sorrymarcus

Friday, May 16, 2008 Y Friday, May 16, 2008

Some dunno what place people just called me and told me that i got chosen for some complimentary facial or massage treat? I was like HUH? How did i get chosen one, i don't really remember myself going to fill up any feedback form or whatever shyt de la. I also not sure if it's a prank anot, like wth lo. Anyway, they helped me booked an appointment on 22th June already, so i'll see how if i wanna go down, confirm i drag people with me orelse who knows what will happen later. Still got free Bird Nest for me to bring home sia, that person say one. Of course, i'm not as dumb to get tricked~ Shall go Study for awhile, i don't really have much time left before 'O's~

Jiaye, if i say i really will love you forever, will you believe me?

Labels: facialprank

Y Friday, May 16, 2008

I MISS HIM SO MUCH NOW THAT I THINK THAT IM GOING CRAZY SOON~ SERIOUSLY, WHY CAN'T HE FEEL THAT~ GOSH~ Sighs, depressing in progress again~ I had this dream last night that they broke up but i didn't really go do anything about it. Although i was glad that i had a chance maybe but that was just a dream. I'm losing hope almost everyday that there wont ever be another chance between us anymore. If saying sorry could help us get together again, i dont wanna let him go just like that. Holidays are coming, his 17th birthday is coming too, yet i doubt i can help him celebrate this time round as he have Shermin by his side now. It really makes me wanna cry, i'm really sorry for doing all those stuffs, but i can't go back to the past anymore, now i could only say sorry to you and blame myself till the day i die. I miss you hugging me from behind, holding my small hands, kissing my lips and saying that you love me deeply and meant it. I'm sorry baby, im sorry but you won't be back anymore. You can even say proudly that you broke up with me infront of Ms Lee too, but ever thought that it will hurt my heart and recall that you ditch me because of Shermin? Your notebook is crashed at this moment so i doubt you even come my blog too, but guess your beloved girlfriend comes to my blog and read all this crap i write about. I do wonder what Shermin likes about you, and if you 2 never knew each other more in A maths lesson will this happen in the end or what? True Friends will never break their friends heart even if it's for a guy yet she did and told me stupid senses that don't really rhythm, i actually did believe her so deeply and she let me down. *Disappointing~ I'm gonna go shower after getting home from CHIJ TPY fiesta, im sleepy~

Jiaye, if time could go back,will
you still choose me to be your girlfriend?I
miss your everything badly~

Labels: alotofmisses

Thursday, May 15, 2008 Y Thursday, May 15, 2008

Ohya, and i just remembered something i said in the morning to my classmates~
My life is practically over, everything i do i fail, so what if i work hard, now even my own beloved boyfriend i also fail to keep him by my side and he went liking my good friend~ Sort of true right? Maybe it's true somehow~ Sighs, Depressed~ HELPP!!

P.S Marcus is still the best~ I LOVE MARCUS~ ^^

Jiaye, your life is full with her,

yet not mine,

do you even know that?

Labels: sighss

Y Thursday, May 15, 2008

Sentosa ; Palawan beach~ [13o5o8]

Just before we get tanned in the sun~

Here we are with the HOT BABES BESTIES at the HOT BEACH~

I just love my CHARMAINE BESTIE~

The second photo with that frisbee is hilarious~ LOLS~

New friends made there; nice knowing you guys~ (:

Smile~ ^^

The Bestie that i can always count on~ Thanks!

Jiaye, jealous anot?

I spend my time sun-tanning at Sentosa,

while getting over not thinking about you and her,

1 month for the both of you,

but i had fun at Sentosa~

wishing you were there with me~

I Just Love Loving you~

Labels: SentosaPalawan

Y Thursday, May 15, 2008

MY MOM JUST ASKED ME TO GO AND DIE FOR NOTHING~ RAWRS~ I'M PISSED ENOUGH TO DO SO, LIKE I DID THE OTHER TIME WHEN I TOOK A PENKNIFE AND ALMOST KILLED MYSELF INFRONT OF JIAYE THAT STUPID IDIOT~ BUT YEA, IM STILL NOT STUPID ENOUGH TO DO SO, COS IF I DID, I COULDN'T GET TO SEE HIM AND HER BREAK UP SOMEDAY AND LAUGH BUT MAYBE I'LL BE SAD AS BY THAT TIME I MAY HAVE GOT OVER IT AND HAVE A NEW BOYFRIEND WHO LOVES ME DEEPLY~ Arghh, off to hell~ Bye~

Labels: momaskmegodie

Y Thursday, May 15, 2008

Yea, im pissed now~ Very pissed~ I HATE THEM~ What wrong with you 2 human beings on earth? Can't you 2 flirt outside school then in class? It's irritating to see that la and be glad i never took a photo of that, plus when you should know how much i will get jealous~ Gosh, i feel like shyt again, seriously at that moment i was so jealous i almost cried. Stop being sweet to each other infront of me, i hate to see that as it made me sick. And ya i skipped the stupid english enrichment because i saw him walking out with her wanting to send you home? FUCK YOU 2 TO HELL~ Sometimes i hope bad things happen to them but i'm yet that evil to wish it really will. I dont really care if she sees this on my blog and start spamming, that's dumb too. But seriously, Jiaye is weird lah, he can start pissing me off in the first place then come over and say he wanna chat with me in class. Weird right? But yea, i didnt want to get the wrong idea about us, so i just said that i was emo-ing and he was disturbing me somehow. Although actually i wanted to have a chat wih him badly but what to do? We are just friends now, normal friends not more than that. I doubt he remember what happen to us before la, but yea. Hope he still does and miss me somehow. I seems like making my own life miserable like what boiboi said, it's true somehow but what to do, im stubborn in a way. Jiaye is so happy now whenever i see him with her, win already lo. I still remember him saying about how good it is to have a girlfriend to accompany him during holidays to Karhao. That totally is like telling me how unlucky i am to lose him and be lonely during holiday without a boyfriend, how bastard can that be. I almost wanted to kill him and made him go to hell. The shocking thing is that Michelle slapped him in his face today when he tried to flirt with her infront of me, She's so fierce that i totally stunned and told her that she's the second person to slap him. I slept for 12 hours yesterday which made me totally like a pig already, what to do also, i didn't want to think so much so i went to sleep. I dreamt of Jiaye somehow not with Shermin, so it wasn't such a bad dream but that wont come true, never it will. I miss Jiaye, i seriously do. Anyway, i got to go meet my sis soon at hub, blog when im free~

Jiaye, i think no matter how long i can wait,

you will surely forget that deal you made to me,

I got this bad feeling that we'll not get back together anymore.

Even if i'm faithful enough to do so,

That answer is insecure for me,

I MISS YOU LIKE HELL~

Labels: Bitchoffman

Wednesday, May 14, 2008 Y Wednesday, May 14, 2008

HAPPY 3 MONTHS BEING SINGLE WITHOUT JIAYE~

CHEERS!

[THOUGH ACTUALLY THE TRUTH HURTS ALOT IN MY HEART NOW~]

School today already turn my day off when it started to rain. Maybe they wanted to help me cry becos they didn't want me to waste my tears on him on this day. But i still miss him alot today, though when i saw him in school in the morning, i wished that he never did came school. Why as i didn't want to feel sad that i'm lost without him again. His still that sweet cute handsome guy in my heart that everyone still thinks that his not after what he had did to me. He can't be blamed too although he look more happy now with her, after what i did? I regret for what happen yet i didn't secure a place in his heart in the end. Time heals all wound yet for this it wont be heal cause i dont wanna move on without him, maybe i will when i find a better guy who will treat me way better than him but IMPOSSIBLE ba? Accidently saw him passing a gift to her after school today which made me jealous yet i had to tell myself " SEE NO EVIL~" We totally never talked for very long already but guess he is glad that i didn't disturb him anymore instead of missing me, that's BHB but who cares. I endure all the way through again, telling myself that my reward is at the end of the road course soon after 3 months later, he'll regret sooner or later. Listen to M2M- "Dont mess with my love~" for alot of times today, totally so true about "NIMREHS" as my best friend before and getting my boy away from me~ Listen to the song, it's true if you have a Best friend like this, disappointing though~ Anyway, i've yet post the photos of SENTOSA~ I'll put it on a different post, alright? It's time for me to go emo off the day, remembering our good old days again~ I doubt he remember anything now, after he got together with her, his lifestyle have changed just for her too. She's blessful enough to have him, my most important love till now.

Jiaye, it's 3 months already and i'm still strong loving you,

you don't fell it but it's okay,

i know you'll feel it sooner or later like what you made a deal with me,

I know i still have a small little place in your heart yet not there still.

I still love you as much like yesterday and it will last till the day i die~

*I PRAY~

Labels: 3monthsingle

Tuesday, May 13, 2008 Y Tuesday, May 13, 2008

Today is their 1 month together and i'm not happy but i have no other choices~ The day went off well at first at Sentosa but around evening i suddenly went very depressed but Ace boiboi accompanied me to sms~ Thanks boiboi~ Took quite alot of photos today with Charmaine Bestie and Aaron. We Sun-tanned and now i got Sun burn rather then getting darker. Anyway, i'll just end off here today as i'm very tired now. Let you guys have a sneak preview of Charmaine Bestie and MEEE as i'm still in the stage of missing him like hell now. Smile~ ^^

Hot Pretty BABES~

Jiaye, 3 months being single is hard for me without you, do you know that?

I miss you like hell the whole day

Thinking that you will be happy with her today for this 1 month~

in the end,

i cried in my heart again without anyone knowing that,

but i still love you alot my baby boy~

Hugs and Kisses!

Labels: Sneakpreviewofsentosa

Monday, May 12, 2008 Y Monday, May 12, 2008

Screwed English Oral today, but at least i control myself in many things today~ Good job and continue to endure orelse you will lose in the game, that refers to myself of cos. I went to catch What happen in Vegas again with Charmaine Bestie and Aaron after that at 1.30pm. We went to get some food at NTUC too which made us late for 10 mins for the movie but i watched it already so it's okay. I love the movie, so touching can? I wanna cryyyy~ Anyway, i met my Adeline Darling at 5pm just now, accompanied her to AMK CC to get her some informations on IT and we went to Coffee bean to get a drink too. We were too tired already, i really wanted to sleep at that moment. Tomorrow is SENTOSA DAY with my BESTIES~ Though it will be my worst day of life again, their 1 month together, i really wonder what they will do tomorrow but who cares? I'm gonna play tomorrow to forget about those stupid stuffs. Bikini baby~ And then Wednesday will be my 3 months being SINGLE, Cheers~ I know what i swear about with those 2 cuts? Aaron almost killed me when he saw it but i told him that it will be gone in 2 days, seriously~ Baby, so what if i miss you? blahs~ I wanna go pack my stuffs for tomorrow~ I'll blog sooon with the wonderful pictures~

Jiaye, now do you believe in what i said and swear about with this 2 cuts?

Labels: Cuts and promises

Sunday, May 11, 2008 Y Sunday, May 11, 2008

YinHui Sweetie~ I LOVE YOU FOREVER~ I'm glad that i got to know you since Primary 1, ever since then our Friendship never gone apart~ Now it has last to 10 years plus already, and we are still besties~ Thanks for being there when i need you, the movie we watched yesterday was nice too~ Spending time with you is great too~ Smiles~ Don't stress too much over your studies, okay? Take care, my Les ღ~

Labels: dedicated to yinhui

Y Sunday, May 11, 2008

Three Day Grace - Never Too Late

This world will never be what I expected,

And if I don't belong who would have guessed it?

I will not leave alone everything that I own,

To make you feel like it's not too late.

It's never too late.

Even if I say, "It'll be alright,

"Still I hear you say you want to end your life.

Now and again we try to just stay alive.

Maybe we'll turn it all around 'cause it's not too late.

It's never too late.

No one will ever see this side reflected,

And if there's something wrong who would have guessed it?

And I have left alone everything that I own,

To make you feel like it's not too late.

It's never too late.

Even if I say, "It'll be alright,
"Still I hear you say you want to end your life.
Now and again we try to just stay alive.
Maybe we'll turn it all around 'cause it's not too late.
It's never too late.

The world we knew won't come back.

The time we've lost can't get back.

The life we had won't be ours again.

This world will never be what I expected.

And if I don't belong...

Even if I say, "It'll be alright,

"Still I hear you say you want to end your life.

Now and again we try to just stay alive.

Maybe we'll turn it all around 'cause it's not too late.

It's never too late.

(It's never too late.)

It's not too late.

It's never too late.

Labels: It's never too late

Y Sunday, May 11, 2008

And now seriously, i kind of hate those spoilt little brats out there, so what if you guys are rich? Does that means that you can look down on those people who are poor or just low in income? Ass, disgusting shyt~ Rich kids are pampered way too much that i just think that they should try to be poor someday to know how horrible it is like. Rich Kids mostly don't understand what love actually is too, with their bad temper and attitude, i doubt it will be a serious one, so what if you swear it? Talk is cheap, words don't mean anything. Just like promises can be broken while making a deal is different. Everyone has their own mentality or knowledge. Each of us has our own speed to learn everything, not that we are slow or what, we just need a longer time, so don't look down on them, that's cruel and you will surely go to HELL. Everyone makes a mistake in life, we just have to give them another chance to not repeat the same mistake even if they did, we must always let them have another third chance if you believe in them. Not everyone will be perfect too, don't think you are so great to be smarter than your friend and look down on them. You are way more stupid in the end, it's bad to be proud cause everyone will hate you too. Be humble in what you do, that way people will be your friends. Don't ever give up if it's a difficult task, keep on trying till you succeed, that's the way to aim what you want in the end. Be happy so that you won't worry your friends or family around you. Love and cherish those people around you, don't wait till they are gone and regret, you dont gain anything in the end but saddness filled in your heart. Remember not to lie and be honest too.

I always tried my best to be perfect for you yet you still thinks that she's more perfect than me ~

I'll love you eternity and forever ~

You'll always be my baby, i swear ~

Labels: richbrats

Y Sunday, May 11, 2008

To all mothers in this world, HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY~

A brand new day for me, actually im still not in the mood to blog but im too bored at home already. I went out with my sweetie Yin hui out to get skinny jeans and catch a movie together, What happen in Las Vegas? A nice show, funny and touching are my comments, best recommended to those sweet couples or those who dont understand love. LOL~ I'm bullyshyting now, Chilli crabs for dinner, Dad's the chef for the day. I didn't get any mother's day presents for my mom, such a bad daughter she has. I wanna run away from everything now, suddenly everything irritates me. I played MSN games and wawa with Genie today, as i was very bored too. Gosh, i really must go plan what to do in June holiday and how to spend it wisely. Time i go edit some photos too~ Byeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee~

Girlfriends for life~

I'm lost without you~

Jiaye, if you're mine, i know you'll return to me some day like the movies~ (:

Labels: boredness